My dear friends,

Thank you for all your emails, mails and, thank you for all your prayers.
 Thank you  for all your encouraging words, Bible verses and songs. From some
 I read “the only thing I can do for you is pray…” That’s the best you can do for me
! What is better than putting our Loved once in our creators hand?! One of His promises is that He will listen!

What I am allowed to learn again is to enjoy each new day with Him. We have this day, but only God knows if we are here tomorrow. A great example are the birds to me. They start to sing at 4 in the morning until night. Why do they sing all day long? Because they enjoy life without worrying what will happen next. Now you will probably tell me that we are not just birds and God gave us a bigger brain. That’s right, but He tells us that we are more valuable to Him. That means we could worry even less than birds.

Plus he comments us not to worry, because he knows that when we start to worry it would go in a wrong direction. When we worry we make Him small and the problems big. What is good on that? We don’t always understand His decisions right away and start to see them negertiv, but He is the one who knows what comes next. I know that humans like to know sometimes the future, but don’t you think its better to take step by step and let God prepare us for the next step?

Let me tell you something to the last chemo. The first day I was really tired and felt sick. That’s not good to start a chemo, right? But you know I was aloud to leave the hospital better than got in. Thank you for you prayers!

Oh and yesterday my dad and Eva my friend and I went to the hospital and after all the administrative stuff, blood test and what ever they do on the fist day we were aloud to take of for a while. I ask Jesus to show us a good Pizzeria to enjoy pizza. I think that was the best pizza I ever had. You see God likes to take care of little things.

On Monday I got a big package with a ice machine from my Godmothers and Godfathers family and friends of theirs. I am spoiled from El Salvador. And now my whole family will be spoiled. You have to know that a machine like that is not common for Germans.

While I am writing to you I am after the first day of the last time harder chemo dropping. I am thankful about my condition I still have. In the morning I enjoyed the last piece of my pizza and now a sweet piece of watermelon. My pain is getting better. There is even a difference to the last 2 weeks. And no comparison to the pain I had the last 5 Month.

I also know that if I will get bad again in the next days He will be with me and carry me through. What a good thing to know that my future is in His hand!

“Father, if  you are willing, take this cup from me; yet not my will, but yours be done”  Lukas 22: 42

“My salvation and my honor depend on God, he is my mighty rock, my refuge. Trust in Him at all times, O people, pour out your heart to Him, for God is our refuge.” Psalm 62:7-8

… time for me to take a nap  


Puschel wrote on June, 17th: