Hallo, my dear friends,
Even when I am laying in my bed life is busy just living it. Since last year I know how hard it can be to stay alive, but I also enjoy my life even more. In the hardest times I had the best laughter with my family. I knew I have a great family, but I didn't know that my family is even greater! Our God is great, but He became even greater to me! I knew there is a heavenly family, but I did not know that it is the real family I have here. How Joel Vermillion, an american friend in Sweden says "It is good to be alive"! I became even more alive through out the year.
About a week ago I had bad pain in my pelvis. It was not the usual pain I have since the operation. The pain started in my stomach and even with strong pain medicine it wouldn’t totally leave. We had to go to the hospital, because I have a extra risk of infection. That was not the best day of my life since I stayed at the hospital more than I was at home in the last year. Sure the bigger problem was the question about what is going on in my body. Do I have an infection? Is something broken? Is it just normal or did the cancer came back fast? There was a lot I could have worried about, but instead I heard the whole day the song in my head written by Danny Plett
“I find my rest in God alone, my salvation comes from Him. He alone is my rock I will never be shaken. Beside the quiet water I will lay my fears. Yes you have been faithful through all my years. “
That was my help to stay in dependence to Him and making the decision over and over that He has the best plan even if we can’t see it or understand. He is my rock every day and I can find rest in Him alone. And yes, He has been faithful through all the years. I can not give you an example where He has not been faithful, but a thousand where He has been.
I am working on letting Him take every minute of my life and keep my thoughts by Him. I fail often, but the times I remind my self that He is present I grow and only profit from it. As more I give Him time and keep Him in my thoughts as more I want to stay in His presence with awareness. It is not always easy, but I get more excited about Him as more I spend time with Him. Some of you mind think that Puschel has time in her bed, so it’s simpler. The opposite is right. I want to encourage us to give up every minute to Him so He can work in our lives. That we can find rest in Him and enjoy our salvation we have through Him.
My God knew that I enjoy being home. I didn’t have to stay at the hospital. I have to stay in my bed, but it could be worse. Last year I had to stay in my bed, but felt always sick and had constant pain. I had lost all my hair and sometimes was not even able to hold a glass of water. These days I have it much better. Can you pray with me that my broken bone will heal and get more stable than before? And thank God that the tumor did not come back yet!
You have been a great, faithful prayer team all over the world. I want to thank you. I can not tell you how encouraged it is for my whole family.
Would you keep another family in your prayer? There is a girl about my age. Her name is Karin. She is diagnosed on cancer too, but different to me the doctors told her that she won’t be alive longer than a couple of weeks. Please ask God to eider do a miracle and heal her or however comfort the whole family. She has 2 younger sisters. You can imagine that is very hard for relatives and friends. I am so glad to know that she is a believer and knows where she will go. May they all feel His presence and peace.
June, 13th 2008
Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.
1. All to Jesus I surrender; all to him I freely give; I will ever love and trust him, in his presence daily live.
I surrender all, I surrender all, all to thee, my blessed Savior, I surrender all.
2. All to Jesus I surrender; humbly at his feet I bow, worldly pleasures all forsaken; take me, Jesus, take me now.
3. All to Jesus I surrender; make me, Savior, wholly thine; fill me with thy love and power; truly know that thou art mine.
4. All to Jesus I surrender; Lord, I give myself to thee; fill me with thy love and power; let thy blessing fall on me.
5. All to Jesus I surrender; now I feel the sacred flame. O the joy of full salvation! Glory, glory, to his name!
Text: J.W. Van Deventer; Music: W.S. Weeden
With a friend René Müller