Oh, man you guys have blessed me so much in a couple of weeks.
Thank you for all your prayers, crying and fasting. Thank you for all
your emails. Thank you for the time you think of me.

His peace is with me, may it be with you as well. The time what is coming is
not going to be easy, but He is with me and you are with me as well in some way. Thank you for fighting together. 2 Cor.1:3-11

I asked the doctors to let me go home for 2 days so I can rest and just be home before the therapy starts. I could tell you a lot about the last week, but my energy is to low for that. I can only say that God is holding me high up. And I will be “heavier” in the future for Him (not really ~ he is God…), but He can hold me I know! A great thing was that my uncle “Lumpi” who is a doctor, came for the last 3 days and stayed with me and explained me a lot. My pain is also more under control. Wish I could answer all the emails and mail I got. Thank you for your understanding that I can’t. But for you to know: It is very encouraging to read the mails. My dad sometimes prints them out for me and brings them to the hospital or today I can read them in my bed.

Let me tell you the plan of the doctors ( I am sure its different to Gods plan, because He loves to go other ways  - the best ways even if we don’t always understand them right away)

On Friday I have a little Operation were they will implant a “port” It’s a little pillow under the skin on my chest with a tube in to my veins to my heart. Ha, what a definition. That way when I get all the IVs and chemo they don’t have to find veins on my arm all the time and I can move my arms better and the risk of infection is lower. On Saturday they will start with the first chemo therapy. 3 until 5 days chemo (depends on the kind of medicine) at the hospital and if I feel well a week at home. And then again and again. That will be for 10 weeks. After that I will have a very big surgery. After that it will keep going with chemo therapy. The whole plan (human plan) is for about 10 month.

I have a verse for you to think about and learn from for today.

Jesaiah 41:10 So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.

A joy I had on this day was that Silas my brother and my mom picked up some lambs since we didn’t have sheep over the winter...



May, 2th 2007

In Christ alone my hope is found He is my light, my strength, my song
This Cornerstone, this solid ground Firm through the fiercest drought and storm
What heights of love, what depths of peace When fears are stilled, when strivings cease
My Comforter, my All in All Here in the love of Christ I stand

In Christ alone, who took on flesh Fullness of God in helpless babe
This gift of love and righteousness Scorned by the ones He came to save
'Till on that cross as Jesus died The wrath of God was satisfied
For every sin on Him was laid Here in the death of Christ I live

There in the ground His body lay Light of the world by darkness slain
Then bursting forth in glorious Day Up from the grave He rose again
And as He stands in victory Sin's curse has lost it's grip on me
For I am His and He is mine Brought with the precious blood of Christ

No guilt in life, no fear in death This is the power of Christ in me
From life's first cry to final breath Jesus commands my destiny
No power of hell, no scheme of man Can ever pluck me from His hand
'Till He returns or calls me home Here in the power of Christ I'll stand